This fine day

The summer is my second favorite season, only because you can show off your body. This summer- after getting back to who I am; that all I been doing lately ( showing what my mother gave me) I been holding back for to long now , not trying to show who I am off because of what people might say and if I might get talk about or whatever. Life to short to be always thinking about what people think of you, be happy, be brave and be free.

That what BBM all about anyways.

Nice days

Lately I been working, got myself up on my feet and put my life back on track. I made myself stop feeling sorry and over thinking doing " What if this happen or what if that happen" Stopping myself from doing good a lot of things I would like and love, just like cleaning out my bag( that had a lot of stuff I didn't need) I clean out my mind; praying, reading, and listening to outside calming noise( that don't work) but it better then hearing my own thoughts sometimes. Finally become a adult and growing into my own, I'm loving it even if it have to work a full time job and only getting one day a week off and every other weekend, I'm still happy with any and everything that come my way.

Hopeless romantic

AN ETERNAL OPIMIST, ALWAYS BELIEVING IN THE POWER OF LOVE AND ROMANCE  AS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT ASPECT IN HUMAN EXISTENCE.

This saying is so me, I always think it a potion out there that we all need to know -like really know where is true love at.   Love to me mean inhaling so much  breathe in your body that it hurt your chest then when you finally breathe out your body go relax, as if you on cloud nine. I grew up always wanted to feel a love that was a fight to proof it was right.

I look at old movies like My fair lady, Roman holiday, About time, Romeo and Juliet, Breakfast at tiffany's, West side story, any of Nicholas sparks movies, he just knew how to spark up a girl heart, and also any Disney princess movies falling for prince charming  who recuse you from something (just notice mostly it was a evil stepmother), mahogany and my list go's on and on and on and on-you see a lot of my love movies is mostly the man coming to get the girl he know is the one for him and not trying to play hard to get just come and say he want her and he will do anything to get her. love- falling in love, even looking at love anywhere with anything I coo over, also you can see old fashion love is my thing; is it so wrong to want  a old fashion love man-no- one that come knock on your door "hello excuse me miss, but I wanted to know to if I can take you out on a lovely dinner of your choice of course"( James Dean, Paul Varjak charm) or one that old come and introduce himself to your parents to make you feel comfortable. Its going to be hard to find someone like that in  2019, where being a gentleman mean not having a back bone or being a punk, wouldn't it be better just falling in love with a Him(Her reference ) a smart device that know you already, one that you can talk to about anything, have the same interest  because they your files, basically you talking to yourself just with a different voice and sound.

I grown up around seeing romance , my mom and dad was the two most coo, nasty( but in a good way)  romantics, they way they love each other and talk about how they loved  and when you look in their eyes you can see that love they had for one another, even if they got into a big fight my dad would say he sorry first and my mom would say she still mad trying her best to show the most ugly saddest face but couldn't because a warm smile would hit her face so fast-breathe taking- they would tell us about how they met and how my dad would not stop trying to get her, even when she wouldn't talk to him(being fake shy) and how he would wait for her to walk to her door before he would leave and how he showed off his money- that she say didn't really impress her one bit, I would love to listen about them all the time when my sisters and brothers would walk away getting tired of hearing what they love was because they heard it some many times and would love to hear it over and over again even until this day sometimes I would listen to my mom talk about how they would be together forever, even until that my dad left us after 30- something years of marriage she still talk about the love they shared and understanding they had. I do sometimes see why im a hopeless romance because I seen it in my house hold for a long time, i still don't understand sometimes why it will never really be again or why it not a thing but i will always have my hope up because i think and always will think  that THE LOVE YOU GIVE IS THE LOVE YOU DESERVE. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

          

 

 

   

 

 

why no pic, im just saying.

hey, my readers but not so followers, how have y'all holidays been? did y'all bring in the new years right? i know it the end of the new years month and im talking to y'all about it but this is something im been doing with everything, being late and not on time with a lot of stuff, but i am getting better at it, i still been great; I been having a really wonderful winter after all this time of having a green nice  winter, Mr. frosty want to come and say hi in Syracuse and make everybody love him even more. I do love the winter, but i don't love the winter lol; when i was younger i was always into hot coco and watching TV with my family or even by myself, but now when you on the run all the time trying to get things done it not the best time to be happy about the snow...or that just me...., ok so getting to what i really want to talk about, i been looking at my blog and seeing that i haven't been putting pictures of me on here and this also me but when i look at someone blog about fashion, health, beauty etc, i always want to look at the pictures of them to see if anything change or is it working on them the way they say it is or sometimes pictures just much better; I don't even read the post sometimes,  only go for the pics; but what if they had a meaning behind the picture I would never knew because I just go and look at the picture. I thought about it and I didn't want people to just look at my pics and not see if I had a promising saying/ meaning behind it. Remember reading a book with no pics so u had to imagine or create a picture in your head of what they was saying, that what I'm some-what trying to do, even though some of the post I make have nothing to do with picture lately. I don't want to be them- the viewers that think everything we do we have to show some image for it,  people can go by what they think; David Glover when he made 'This is American' when ask about it he really don't gave a explanation, he want you to put it how you see it: and the fact that it came out really good, deep-felt meaning to a lot of people(just not African Americans). I want to show a side of me in my blog that shows sometimes I just love to talk and say things that have no meaning or having nothing to do with nothing, but it just fun to put it out there-have a different opinion about thing. I'm talk about anything, I do believe that pictures is worth a thousand words-most of the time, sometimes you can look at a picture and see nothing but a picture(it need to be explain when that happens) some people want you to put your own opinion to it , even us blogger just want someone to think what they want, when they see us post a picture ( David Glover effect). I mean it a big deal even if people think it not because to me pictures is not saying much and saying really do helps a lot.

                                                                            

                                                     P.S, pictures will be back but now I like just talking and saying how I feel and what on my mind, to my readers but not followers.

    

BGM) Being strong make you a leader but power minded make you a CEO.

 

                                                           

Winter favorites and skin care

the winter is here and it not fair ....to my skin( i was trying my dr. seuss, it didn't work) but, it true it never do right by my skin, sometimes i don't want to do a lot of work to my skin so it don't dry out when the cold air hits it; that just to much work to make sure it so hydrated.
I carry a big bag all the time with me, but in the winter its bigger; i always get told off by my family or friends that i carry to much that is unnecessary, but they just don't understand that i cant just make it without half of the things in my bag. lol

my winter care and needs for my skin.
I'm going to tell of what carry with me for my winter it's a most have always for me.

• Nivea lip balm, i love lip balm that have a tint to it so i try to always get one that have it, the prettyness that ur lips look when you put it on also chap ice rosy tint.

• Olay  regenerist luminous facial oil, i start using this last year my first time having this and i fall in love with it and if they dont have this one and/or i use miracle boost one that i also just love the how the bottle look

• Collagen anti-aging cream, i put this around my eyes, use it for eye cream; it nice and it do help me with my dark circles       

     

•  Skin brightening intensive moisturizer i use for my whole face and coco butter for when your ladyhood (time of the month) is here and them zip pimple make little dark spots on your skin i put that on until i see them little annoying things leaving my face.

• Shea butter cream cleanser, this it what i wash my face with in the winter, first time using it i just love how it looked  on my skin like this cute white shimmer,
•        AMBI complexion cleansing  bar, i love this as well, in a week tops after using i did start seeing the dark spots mostly from my ladyhood leave and i just thought it was the best and i needed this all the time.

 I  was also about my skin because like i talk about in resent post im a big girl so some stuff should be right with me and it was always my teeth and skin. i do love the winter but really i cant deal with the dryness of it.

 im saying winter but im also using this it just that in the winter it better.

 

     

MY thanksgiving

My thanksgiving went great, everything went as plan,  cooked rice, chicken, baked Mac and cheese, baked beans, yams with marshmallows, roast with cut up carrots,  potato and greens, with chicken dip and banana pudding for dessert (still didnt get no new camera and wasn't thinking to do it with my phone lol that happen yo everyone... Right) but I had a lovely time with friends and family it was all smiles and laughter.
I wasn't able to see a lot of my family and friends so I just sent them gift cards from paperless post, it is good u make a account and send greeting cards and invites to whoever u want to,  it's great
Paperlesspost. com

I'm thankful for being here and breathing everyday i wake up, thankful for my family and friends that i talk too.
Hope everyone also had a happy thanksgiving.
https://www.paperlesspost.com

big girl magic (BGM)

I went though hell and back to get to love myself like I use to, having the confidence to be happy within me, become more powerful with me even though im still struggling with my eating disorder. I try my best to just go and be free as much as I can.

Being a BIG GIRL was a always for me. I never thought howhow it would be, to be skinny or to have no stomach when I was little, because I always had one. You see my other post I talked about going though the hard part of my eating disorder, I was going about it the wrong way, even if it took me sometime getting back comfortable with who I was and love myself more again I was still better then before. I'm happy-I am and I listen to myself more now and understand more now, even though I still have thoughts and feels;  I still can go that far, I still don't let myself drift away from my determination and good thoughts, clam myself, think everything over, breath in and out, and just relax. now I am and proud of how I made a decision I better my well being and mind. I still go though thoughts yeah I said that a lot only because it true, its was there and taking over everything sometimes it only effect me when im thinking about it to much: I try my best to never go as far as  just thinking about it but I know what I want, to better myself and I know I can do that. I'm happy im getting back to me DONVONTA.





big girl magic is my brand, my life, what make me-me, it show lights on what people find to be their weakest and make it their strength, (BGM)is for the empowering and inspiring woman, the big girl stand for everything; for all shape, size, race, color, and age, I want this name(BGM) to be a voice to all and to be a place where being you don't have no say, no judgement, only hope, freedom to be you, and strength of a natural woman.